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Interests: Being Well, Being the best me I can be, Being prosperous. computers, ,researching, writing, hiking, gardening, cooking,eating, exercising, spirituality.
Expertise: I am a caregiver for inhome elder care. I love my work. I am a free-lance writer and I am a writer and publisher because that is what I do everyday and love doing it.
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I had some nice photos I took to add but the editor won't let me so next time.
Well, I was feeling so much better than boom out of no where I got short of breath, my feet were swollen. I ended up at emergency again. Well, they changed my medication yet again. So now I am recovering again. I can't walk much because of the swollen feet but they are a bit better everyday so I am looking forward to walking again.
The really good news is even after Medicare paid the hospital and doctors I owed thousands of dollars. The hospital and the doctors just wrote it off and made a lower payment for the follow up visits. Thank you God. I would have had to come back another life time just to pay off those bills.
I thought I had solved the roommate problem but I guess not. The guy I thought I would move in with seems to be taking more pain pills than I am comfortable with so decided against him. None of the others really worked out either but I am packing and praying thanking God for this wonderful new place to live. I know it will be there when I am ready to move.
I have been reevaluating my spiritual beliefs and questioning myself about why I created this heart attack and kidney failure. During the time I went into the hospital I fought the doctors and nurses they tell me so they had to strap me to a table to treat me. My doctor says that happens when people are full of drugs and really sick but that is not what it seems to me. So have spent a lot of time in prayer about what happened.
Not much more to say tonight just wanted to catch up with everyone. Judi
I am back. That is what I told my daughter when I finally woke up in the hospital. I have been learning to live a new life style. I am walking not everyday but a lot of days. I am eating better. I am packing to move. I think I am going to share a house with a younger man he is 65. I have done a lot of praying about it and he seems like my best candidate out of the 30 or so roommates that answered my ad. I would like to find a situation like the one in the books "The Ladies of Covington send Their Love," but it hasn't happened yet and I have been praying about making the right choice.
For a while I was really depressed about leaving my house now I am looking forward to a new adventure. Sharing a house with someone seems like the best alternative until I can get into low cost housing. The waiting list for low cost housing is about two years. Apartments are all double what I can afford unless I get a roommate. Now I did have one lady my age who did not yet have a place to live want to find an apartment with me, but she wanted to live in another part of town. The man I am thinking about sharing with has a garden but no flowers. But I can bring some of my flowers in containers. He has a two bedroom, two bath, house.
I am much better as far as my health is concerned. Everything is healing. The doctors say I am a miracle. I just intend keep getting better and more abundantly healthy. I am driving again. I have not gone back to work. I may not go back to work. That is going to make me become very resourceful to live on SS. Maybe I can work a little part time. I think God will give me some good ideas.
Well, just wanted to catch everyone up a little on my boring life. I take a lot of naps yet. I exercise, do a little housework. I know I could have found a way to keep my house but it has to be fixed all the time, the yard is a lot of work. It is a trade off isn't it now I just want more time. Pray with me that I am making the right decisions about who I move in with, would you? Also would be nice to pray that the doctors get my meds right. I am still on some that have terrible side effects. Though I am off the one that was giving me the worst trouble with side effects.
"We would like to leave you with this very clear knowing that we hold: You are just a few laughs away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in. You are just a few kisses away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in. You are just a little bit of relief away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in. "
Excerpted from the workshop in North Los Angeles, CA on Saturday, March 5th, 2005 #716
PROSPERITY PRAYERS & AFFIRMATIONS
Prayers for Prosperity
Thank You, God, for Your loving spirit within me that prospers and blesses my life.
God, You are my source of abundant living. I place my trust in You, knowing that You will guide me and multiply my blessings.
Thank You, God, for Your wisdom that fills me with prospering ideas and Your all-providing presence that assures bountiful supply for every need. My life is enriched in every way.
You are my source, dear God, and in Your presence every need is met. Thank You for Your overflowing goodness that blesses me and those I hold dear.
God, Your love fills my heart and attracts to me all good things. Through Your unlimited substance, I live a life of plenty.
Affirmations for Prosperity
My thoughts are enriched by the creative spirit of God within me. I am filled with renewed enthusiasm, and my life is prospered.
I am a spiritual being, heir to the abundance of God's kingdom. My life is prospered and enriched.
I give thanks for God's prospering ideas that inspire me to live a full, rewarding life.
I am God's beloved creation, and I rely on God's provision to fulfill every good desire.
The presence of God is within and around me. I am alive with creative energy, awake to prospering ideas, and open to unlimited goodness.
I am off Dialysis for now. I still have about 40% kidney disease they tell me but I don't think I will take that into my mind and body. I have cut the heart medicine in half. I am better everyday. It is a challenge as I have to move out of my house and I have been looking for an apartment I can afford. Please pray I find one soon. Other than that I still can't drive. My daughter takes me everywhere I need to go. She wants to move into her own apartment when we move. The doctor says soon I will be able to drive again. I am so grateful that I am getting healthy once more. It was quite a adjustment from being a healthy person who worked and never had any heart trouble to coming out of the hospital with all my organs not working and having to heal. But heal I am and I am so grateful for my health. I am grateful I have SS even if it is not a lot to live on. I know how to be frugal. It has been my goal for a long time to live within my means. I have missed you all. I just have not been up to writing as I was spending twelve hours a week in dialysis and then there were the daily doctors appointments. So can't promise to be here a whole lot but I am here today and I am grateful for my friendship here. So it is, all is well and I love you all. Judi
THE CENTER OF PEACE
By Russell E. Smith
Deep inside you is a place of infinite calm where you can retreat from the cares of the world, where you can find reassurance of God's presence in your life and of God's power to bless you.
Take time to find this place. Make time, if you must, but find it. The center of peace lies in your inner self, awaiting your recognition and beckoning your entrance into its enfolding warmth and love.
How very dear this center of peace must have been to the Psalmist. “He leads me beside still waters” (Ps. 23:2). “Commune with your own hearts … and be silent” (Ps. 4:4 RSV). “I will both lie down and sleep in peace” (Ps. 4:8). These words stand as eternal testimony of the calm in which all of us are centered.
In this place of stillness, inharmony ceases, sadness is wiped away, and hatred is turned into love. Here, in this quiet place within, God assures us: Peace, My child. I am forever with you.
How do we enter this center of peace? How do we find the still waters within?
Jesus said that “the kingdom of God is in the midst of you” (Lk. 17:21 RSV). We do not find our peace in the things of the world around us. We find it only within, in the centermost part of our own inner selves. Looking outside of ourselves is looking in vain. Only within is there peace or hope of peace.
When we find the center of peace within, we find power. We find strength for the activities of the day. We find renewal of our bodies and minds. We find substance for our daily bread. There, in the stillness, is where the blessings of God begin, for there in the stillness is God, the giver of all good gifts.
Where is the source of the power that lights your electric light? Is it in the filament that glows when you press the switch? No, the source is not in the lightbulb. Neither is it in the switch nor in the power line.
Follow the power line. Do you find the source of the power in the transformers? No, it is not there. Do you find it in the huge turbines at the base of the dam? No, it is not there either.
Is it in the falling water that rushes over the spillways of the dam and drives the giant turbines? No, not even in the rushing water.
The rushing water, the turbines, the transformers, the power lines, the switch, and the lightbulb all give evidence of power expended. But where is the power? What is it that causes all the electrical activity, from the dam to your lightbulb, which brightens up your room at night as though it were high noon?
Behind the dam is a vast lake of still waters. Here, in the stillness of the depths of this lake, is the power. Only in stillness is there power.
In the peace and calm of your inner self is power. As you enter the stillness of your soul for a time each day, you find all the power you need to renew yourself for the activities that lie before you. Follow that power line to its source. Move inwardly in your consciousness to the stillness at the center of your being.
Push the switch that turns off your attention to the things of your outer world. Go in, over the power lines of concern for daily situations, and leave them behind. Pass through the transformer of your thinking mind that turns God-ideas into human pursuits, and put it behind you. Go past the great dam and turbines of your feeling nature, where the waters begin to flood into consciousness as thought and feeling. There you find the still waters of the Psalmist.
You have found the infinite calm, the center of peace.
Here you commune with your Lord. Here you are renewed for the tasks of living that lie ahead of you. Here you find your daily sustenance and substance. Here you are replenished in the power of God. Here you are assured that every need is being met.
Once you have found this place of infinite calm within you, trust, as the sheep trusts the shepherd. Your need is God's assurance of fulfillment. When you have communed with God beside the still waters, go knowingly into life, trusting in the eternal promises of God.
You are a child of God, and God is your Creator. Trust in God's love for you.
Go often to the center of peace within.
Trust. Be at peace.
I had to go back to the hospital last night. My heart got too fast and out of rythmn again. But they gave me some more medicine to slow my heart and sent me home. I am so grateful to be home and that I did not have to stay at the hospital.
I am grateful everyday I am a little bit better. My appetite is coming back finally that is a real blessing. I had lost 25 pounds because everything tasted like cardboard but yesterday everything started tasting good again. I am on a really restricted diet but I get some fresh fruit and I love that. My daughter cooks really good food for me.
I am grateful that I have my daughter here with me. I feel bad she has to drive me all these places but she does it cheerfully. I am trying to get Tri-met set up so that I can take their small bus to renal therapy. If I could go to some of these appointments on the bus it would be easier for my daughter. It is good for me to be as independent as possible.
I would like to be able to stay awake a little more and I am making that my goal. I know my heart will heal itself. The cardiologist says that the kind of heart attack I had does heal itself. I am very grateful for that.
So it is, all is well, I love you all. Judi
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I give from the heart.
One of the most touching stories of the Christmas season is that of the "Little Drummer Boy." It is a reminder of the simple act of giving. In this story, the young boy gives of himself and his talent--he plays his drum for the baby Jesus. He shares all he has in a simple way and with a sharing spirit from the heart.
The simple things in life are often the most meaningful. Like the little drummer boy who gave of himself so beautifully, I can give of myself to others.
My gift need not be elaborate, but it is heart-centered and freely given. I offer the gift of my time, attention and talents--whatever they may be. As I do, a simple blessing is given and received.
For the measure you give will be the measure you get back.--Luke 6:38
As I read this simple little advise from my Daily Word this morning I promised God that I would find ways to pay it forward. I also promised to get my head out of poverty and back into God's riches, which he holds out to me with open hands.
I am grateful today for each way I find to pay it forward. I am grateful today for each way that God prospers me. One of the goals I have is to heal my kidneys and get off dialysis and to heal my heart. I believe that more love in my life will heal my heart so I look and listen to see where more love is needed. To heal my kidney it seems I need to eliminate things I do not need.
So God make me alert to who needs love and let me give it freely. Make me aware of who needs prosperity and let me contribute to that. For what bigger prosperity can we have than our health. I am so grateful for the health I have even the life I have as I remember I almost lost it all in a blink of an eye. I am grateful today I live in my home. I am grateful for a daughter that takes me where ever I have to go. I am grateful for a home to clean and for time to do that. I am grateful when I started my car today after it sat for a month it ran easily. I am grateful I soon will be able to drive again. Mostly I am grateful today for a return to my own beliefs that God holds me lovingly in his hand. I have a little more appetite today. I have been up more today than I have in a while. I went to the Coumadin clinic where they restricted my diet even more than the one for renal diet. So I have ordered a cookbook and will go through my recipes of things I like to eat and cut the ingredients they have restricted me eating. That will give me something to do, I can share it here for others who have to eat on a restricted diet. Every other day I go for four hours to Dialysis. Then there are the other errands that people have to do like it is time to get my hair cut and eyebrows done etc., I need new glasses. As long as I can't drive asking others to take me is hard. I will just believe others will offer so to take the burden off my daughter. I will be so glad to drive again another week or two maybe. I have applied for the little Trimet bus that comes to the door and takes you grocery shopping to the library, to doctors appointments. This would help my daughter out a lot. She is working a Christmas job. I have almost all of my Chirstmas shopping done. I did most of it online. So these are my gratefuls for today and I am sure they will grow. As long as one keeps there head in gratefuls then you are always thinking positive.
Feel the power and the freshness of your now: You decipher the contrast. You know what you don't want. You send out your rocket of desire of what you do want, and now you stand in a fresh new place; you want in a fresh way that you have never wanted before. And that's what life is. In that fresh wanting, you summon another dose of Energy. If you can begin to savor the mere fact that you have desire right now, and you would stop trying so hard to have that desire be fulfilled and manifested in some physical format, then you would have it.
Excerpted from the workshop in Boston, MA on Sunday, October 11th, 1998